Destined By: Lady Serenity If two shall meet And then be pulled away from each other Will they meet again? If they were really destined Destined to be together Will they stay that way for all eternity? - Eternal Angel Chapter 3 It was never my fault? Never my fault? He must be mistaken... it was all my fault. All her fault. Everything that happened to my love ones, her friends, anyone that came close to me, was all my fault. Didn't he know that if he spent more time with me, he would only get hurt? Didn't he know? Properly not. He is just too blind. He is just thinking about his princess. His princess. I wish I was his princess... I could picture her in my mind. Beautiful, angelic, graceful, so full of happiness and peace. But, me a princess? Not even close. I don't even know who I am... I know his whole story... How his parents died when he was young, and how he had amnesia. But, he didn't know my whole story. I never dared tell anyone. Have you ever felt unloved, not wanted? I felt that way ever since I was young. It's true though. My real parents left me, on the doorsteps of the Tsukino family when I was two. I wondered why they would leave me. Was I a bad child when I was small? Did I do something? Did they miss me? But, I never got answers. All I got is the eerie silence... the silence I hear in that house now. The house was filled with memories... painful ones... not like they were painful in the first place, it is just that now, looking back hurts so much, more than the feeling of not being loved. It's now a feeling of wondering if you could ever be loved. He seems to want me to open up to him. But he should know better than that. I can't open up to him just like that. It's just too hard. I hid my heart from everyone. Not wanting anyone to touch it. Not wanting anyone to hurt it once more. I'm afraid if I do let someone get close to me, they would break it. They would just open the wound of my heart bigger. 'Could I actually trust him with my heart? Could I?' Serena could hear that question in her head over and over. Haunting her even more. "I don't know. I just don't know." She whispered up to the moon lit sky. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Damn it Sailor Moon!! You are late again!!" Sailor Mars's voice yelled at her. Sailor Moon just looked numbly at her, not replying back at her friend's comment. 'Friend? Is she really your friend? Listen to her? Is that a voice of a friend?' A voice in her asked. She just winced at that and just stood there, not doing anything. "Sailor Moon!! Get your lazy butt over here and use your wand? God!! Don't you know what to do?" Mars yelled at her once again. 'She is really your friend huh? She doesn't care about you. She isn't your friend. She doesn't care if she hurts you or anything. She doesn't care about you, just like everyone else. They don't care about you!' Sailor Mars was furious of her. She looked at Sailor Moon in disgust. She grabbed the wand out of her hands, and used it. "I can't believe you! I don't care if your family just died, you still have to full fill your destiny." With those words, she left. "She is right you know that?" Sailor Mercury replied. Sailor Moon looked up at Mercury in suprise. "Serena, you have to let go. It happened already, you should deal with it." Mercury left with Jupiter together. Sailor Moon watched them leave. "I'm sorry Serena." Sailor Venus said, as she walked away. Sailor Moon just froze at her place. She continued to stay where she was, hearing the truth in her head. 'The truth hurts doesn't it? They never thought of you as a friend. Only as a person that is suppose to help them in their mission. What is their mission? What is their mission?' "To find the moon princess... supposedly suppose to be *his* princess too." She said out meekly. Tears streaked down from her cheek. 'You are just a pawn in their game. Come to me and you will be loved. You will be wanted. You will be needed.' The voice in her said. "Where is that?" 'My, my, Sailor Moon, the negiverse of course. You could show the scouts the pain the cause you... you could show the word the pain that everyone has caused you... the pain that is locked up in your heart... and in your soul... "Negiverse?" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Darien walked down the street, a familiar feeling swept through him. "Serena." The name was whispered from his lips. Something was wrong. He knew that. But what was it? What was happening? His link with her was strong. Strong enough that he could feel her pain sometimes. Strong enough to feel what she feels. He turned into the corner to a dark alley, and quickly transformed into Tuxedo Mask. He jumped up on the roof and quickly went to where she was supposedly was. She saw her. Talking to someone. He couldn't recognize him. He had golden blond hair, and wearing some type of uniform. He then came up close enough to hear them. "Through this portal leads me away from here? Away from everyone and all the hurt they caused?" She asked wondrously. "Yes. Sailor Moon, all you have to do is join us, and you will always be needed, always be loved, always be wanted." He replied to her, watching her cautiously. "Hmm, sounds okay to me. There isn't anything left here for me anyways. Nothing and no one." She said. He felt like he had just been punched, only it hurt much more. 'Nothing was left here? What about me? Doesn't she know that I love her? God, please don't let her leave me.' The man looked up and saw him. A smirk on his face. "Come on then," He said. "Let's go." Before he could prevent her on going in, she was long gone. He fell to the ground. Tears sprang from his eyes. "Why Serena? Why did you have to leave me? Why didn't you just stay?" Silence replied. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Don't you think we were a little... harsh?" Amy asked. She couldn't believe what she said to Serena. She felt so guilt for being so mean to Serena. She should have been more understanding. Her family had just died, leaving her, alone. She had to pay the bills, meaning she had to get a job. She was still grieving. But she thought that Darien would have made her forget about all that... he did... but for only a little bit. "She deserves it. What kind of leader is she? I mean I feel sorry for her, but life goes on. Pitting her like this won't help." Raye stated. "Yes, but understanding would." Lita spoke up from her silent state. "We haven't been through that, Raye, you have your grandfather, and your father, wherever he is, Amy, you have your mom, Mina, you have both your parents. I know what she is feeling. I can't blame her. She must be blaming herself." "Blaming herself for what?" Raye asked. "For everything." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ end of chapter 3 Thanks for everyone who e-mailed me before. 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