When I'm down… …all I have to do… is go into your arms… …and then… …all the pain and heartache… …leaves me… …and then… …all I feel… …is you… ~~~ I Can Love You Like That - All-4-One They read you Cinderella You hoped it would come true That one day your prince charming Would come rescue you You like romantic movies And you never will forget The way it felt when Romeo kissed Juliet And all this time that you've been waiting You don't have to wait no more I can love you like that I would make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart Be all that you need Show you you're everything That's precious to me If you give me a chance I can love you like that I'd love you like that I could love you like that I never make a promise that I don't intend to keep So when I say forever, Forever's what I mean Well, I'm ain't no Casanova but I swear this much is true I'll be holding nothing back When it comes to you You dream of love that's everlasting Well, baby open up your eyes I can love you like that I would make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart Be all that you need Show you you're everything That's precious to me If you give me a chance I can love you like that ~~~ embrace by eternal angel usako9@hotmail.com http://cherryblossoms.cjb.net/ ~~~ Let me see – let me see… There are many times in my life where things aren't the way I would want them to be. Far from it actually. Well, of course life isn't suppose to be easy and a simple breeze – but still, there is light in the darkness. What makes everything continue on going is the fact that you are always on my side, unconditionally loving me and then, you'll hold me close… Into… your… embrace… ~~~ I guess the first time I truly fell for you was when my life was in the deepest of despair. In the most despaired time, that is when you find the most hope to make you continue on living – My hope was you. Well, I can still recall the moment in time where I felt like nothing. It was but my first heartbreak. You see, this guy had lighten my eyes, he had given me my first kiss, my first feeling of my stomach aching in knots, and the feeling that I was absolutely loved by someone other than my parents or family. It felt wonderful. It was love. But, wonderfully, he was only my first love – and not my only love. Demando. That was his name. His hair was a sleek icy blue colors, as a more arousing shade of blue… but not as dreaming as yours… His smiled made me feel as if I had done everything right, his soft careless of the hand made myself tingle deep inside, and his kisses… Hehehe… maybe I'm reminiscing, but I know I don't miss him now that I have you. But anyways, I totally adored him. I listen to everything he said, spent all my time with him, as he insisted. I was his girlfriend, he told me, I should be with him and not hanging out with my friends… that cause me to neglect them, but they forgave me after my heartache. He was awfully jealous of any guy I talked to. Friends I said! He said that sure it was – but that doesn't stop the guys to not think of it in any other way. But in the end, he was the one that left me. He was cheating on me… I found him deeply evolve with kissing a green haired girl. I turned around and left… Crying… And I found you. You were a close friend I met through Motoki-onii- chan… you looked at me, your blue eyes filled with concern as you took me into your arms and then I felt everything leave me – the pain, the heartache, the tears. I felt… …complete… …and my heart… …it began to beat faster… And I wondered – did you feel it too? I think you did, because soon after that heart crushing experience, we had gotten together – but back to the point. The feeling I felt in your arms was awes trucking with an absolutely warming dreamlike feeling. So fuzzy – almost driving me into a schoolgirl type of giggle. The tingling feeling tugged my heart, almost indescribable. The moment was only a couple of seconds – It was stay with me until the rest of eternity. Demando had never had this effect in me. I just felt warmth, but never the security and the feeling that life was beautiful. But the moment had not lasted forever, for you had parted with me, looking at me, your deep blue eyes gazing deeply into my own – "It'll be okay." And we went our separated ways… Sighs. A moment I love to reenact over and over again… …and I am content at that… ~~~ Of course that was but not the only moment that made me know that this feeling inside was really true. There had been many moments in near future when you grabbed me softly into your sweet embrace. There were carefree loving times, and there were those moments when life had not given me a reason, and then you'll pull me into your web of love and I'd see that my reason is you. Well, I remember when, I felt so much like an ignorant baka. Can you believe it? I flunked but another test, not that it didn't happen continuously, but still, I recall staying in the whole day, cramming, cramming, and cramming… To bad all the things I did memorize was but the things sensei did not place upon the test. Curse my luck. (Sighs). But not only that, sensei had said to me that if my grade had not reached a B upon the next test, that I was most likely to flunk. Ohh Kami, another year upon this class? It was so horrid, staying behind as I watched my friends leave to an upper level as I was stuck as the eldest in the class? I remember finding myself in front of your apartment, tear struck and broken as you rushed me into your apartment, as you listened to my a strange gushing about what had happen. Your soothing voice had caused me to stop my shaking but when you pulled me into your arms and said that you'll tutor me until I was smarter than Ami (if that was possible ^^), I could feel everything – the pain, being broken – all of it just disappear. The only thing I felt was you and I… as our hearts emerged as one… Classic… So fuzzy… So peaceful… Un-partable. And when you let me go, I could feel myself become lost. I wanted you to hold me once again, I wanted to feel that moment where nothing truly mattered except the world that we had made to escape from this one… I had received an A on the next test – I shocked them all, especially Ami who had received but a lower one percent that I did. She had stayed in shock for the rest of the week. But not only that, but for the rest of the year, my grades had pulled higher, bring my status up greatly. My parents had accept you so happily at the fact that you were able to change me for the better. My father didn't think of touching his shotgun under his bed. ^.~ ~~~ I guess those experiences might not have been nerve wrecking, heart tearing, emotionally broken down moments, but what can you expect? My life had not been thrived in heart battering experience – Except when Rei had been in a car accident. You see, Rei was my best friend, and everyone could see it, once they looked back the ongoing teasing and bickering that we had so much fun doing. It was just a way we liked to be, because it showed how much we were comfortable with each other. I shared all my inner most thoughts to her (ahem) about you, and about my life. I had never felt so disrupt to hear that she was hanging upon the thread of life as fate and destiny debated on whether you should live or not. I heard the news from Rei-chan's grandfather who had cried merciful, praying for his priestess granddaughter at the foot of her bed about her condition. Her father had not visited, he had not known. He was but to busy on a business trip and his politics to even catch the news. I had stayed in the hospital watching her for days. You had not known of this because you were at an internship in Harvard. But as soon as you heard, you had booked a flight to come and sooth me. My friends had screamed, "How romantic…" Maybe it was, but I was too heartbroken at what had happen to Rei to think of anything else. You had come, forcing me home with you. You made me take a shower and clean up. You made me eat until my heart begged for mercy cause you heard that I had not eaten anything since Rei's hospitalization, and you made me get some rest, as you watched me do so. I tried to fight you, to say I need to stay with Rei, but how could I fight a brick wall? But you took me into your arms, my sobs running freely as my tears stained your dress shirt. Into your arms, you made me look at you. Your arms were tight, your eyes held authority as your voice filled with sorrow; "Onegai… Usa-ko… Onegai. I hate seeing you like this…" You tighten your embrace upon me as I felt my throat tighten. I could no longer fight against you. It would be a horrid act after I heard your desperateness within your voice. "Hai Mamo-chan, I will." You squeezed me tighter. "Arigato." Rei-chan had soon gotten out of her danger period, as you stayed with me every step of the way, neglected your schoolwork. ~~~ Now, after looking back at so many memories, I cannot help but wonder why you had chosen me as your lover. The girl who had cried at the little things in life, and felt like dying in the hardest things. No, I am not saying I do not appreciated you, it's just I know you can receive better, more beautiful, less problem stricken girls. Why is it me that you have chosen to be with. I asked you that, as your blue eyes looked at me. "Iie Usa-ko, you are beautiful, you are smart, and most importantly, you are not a burden to me. You see, in your own little way that you have not known it, you have lifted up my heart. You had made me feel as if nothing in the world has anything compared to the feeling you make me feel within my heart." Your words had deeply made me feel so sweet inside. "I use to be so alone before – but now that I have you… oh Kami, I never want to let go…" And then, it was not you that took me within your arms… But it was me… …that took YOU… …into MY… …embrace… ~~~ I was meaning to write this sooner – for it was something I had planned to write for a while… I thought it was a fuzzy feeling – different from my dark depressing stories… hmm… that's cool though ne? I mean, I'm getting somewhere! Hehehe… anyhow, email me please!