Hiya peoples! Here is a brand new series written by yours truly… ::swats reader on the head:: no, not Jade… me, Usa-chan. Well, I do hope you enjoy, it's rather… strange… and, as you guessed it, depressing. I am kinda uncertain of what I am writing, but work with me people, I am trying my hardest… okay, so maybe not… hehehe… well, my web page is totally down. I can explain! It's kinda hard when I just came back from vacation… I know, so that was two weeks ago, but you see the time difference, and my longing to go back. And with the program being deleted… okay, so it's re-building it one more time…. ::cries:: it's not fair!! Isn't there a way to build in a minute? I do hope you enjoy this story, which goes out to Twilight. Nee-chan, I have been missing you SOOO much! Where are you? ::sniff sniff:: Disclaimer ~ You can't make me write one!! Anything but this!! What did I do to deserve this treatment? I don't wanna write this disclaimer!!! ::face cheers up:: hey, maybe I should be like Naoko and write a famous anime and have all these people write fanfiction and have them get tortured by writing these disclaimers…. Hmm… Forgive me and forget me By: Eternal Angel (usako9@hotmail.com) Chapter 1 (Yes Chi Chi, it's a poem ^^) Forgiveness is all I have to ask from you Forgive me please Spare the speeches I already regretted Tell me you forgive me When I say I'm sorry You don't have to doubt I am sincere I have been hurting too much without you To just lie to you Don't turn away from me I'll only hold you back I just want you to know I'm sorry I'm sorry Please forgive me Forgive me... ~~~ Rain. Water droplets from the sky. Innocent at first, slow and steady, not harming anyone, that is until the speed fastens, the rain thrashing down harder, rapid, and violent. Innocents to violence. Only ceasing when it has done enough damage. ~~~ 'It couldn't hurt...' It did. 'Trusting him, he wouldn't lie.' He did. 'You're just imagining things.' Then why does the picture look so clear? 'He wouldn't betray you...' But he did. He did... ~~~ "Usagi-chan! Daijoubu ka?" The blond broke out of her trance. "Nani? You said something Mako-chan?" The brunette frowned at her friend's behavior. She watched as the blond poked at her food. "Usa-chan, why aren't you eating?" Makoto asked as her eyes filled with worry. Usagi smiled at her. "I'm not really hungry, I ate during class, don't worry about me, you eat." Makoto nodded, swallowing her words quickly. A smile played on her face. "Usa, want to come to my house after school? How about we bake cookies. We haven't had a scout meeting for a _long_ time and I'm kind of missing going to the shrine after school..." "Hai, you can count me in Mako." "Great." ~~~ 'All I ever wanted to be was a normal girl...' But you are now. 'I can never be normal.' You can always tried. 'I can't try. I'm just too tired of trying to pretend that everything is all right.' But isn't it? Isn't it?! ~~~ "Sailor Moon, late _again_?" Sailor Mars bickered. Sailor Moon didn't say a thing in reply. She looked around at the situation, Sailor Venus was watching over Sailor Mercury who was injured badly. 'They always go for the quiet ones, why don't they go for the ones with the give dirty mouth that only knows how to insult people.' Sailor Moon thought darkly, as she pulled out her scepter. With quick movements, the youma laid a pile of dust on the ground. Sailor Moon didn't say a thing as she walked away. "Where do you think you are going Usagi?" Sailor Mars said, as Sailor Moon turned to face her. "It does not concern you." "It does concern me! You come here as if you are a god, coming when you please, kills the youma and then leave! Well Sailor Moon, I don't like that attitude of yours. You're late, you caused Mercury to get hurt this bad. You should be ashamed of yourself." "Iie." Sailor Moon replied, her eyes bloodshot. "No, _you_ should be ashamed. You rely on me too much. I _don't_ have to be here in every single battle! You can defeat the youma yourself. But no, you wait for me to come so you can bitch on me! Have you ever thought that I have other things to do then saving your butt?" "Nani!! What are you talking about! You save _my_ life? As if! You have that mistaken, we save your butt. See, we don't need you. Hell, there isn't even suppose to be a Sailor Moon! There should be a Sailor Moon!" Sailor Mars yelled back angrily. "If that's the way it is then okay, I resign being Sailor Moon since there isn't suppose to be one in the first place. It doesn't matter anyway, if you think you don't need me, I don't see why I am here." Sailor Moon said. "But don't worry, you aren't getting the crystal from me though. That was a gift from my mother, and well, I am not letting someone like you use it. But now that I think about it, you can't use it." "Fine, go, leave. We don't need you." Sailor Mars said, as she pushed her princess away from her. Sailor Moon smiled. "Don't think I'm going to cry. Tears don't come to me easy anymore. Sayonara." With that, Sailor Moon de-transformed and left, the communicator laid on the ground where she once stood. ~~~ 'Free from responsibility.' Feels good doesn't it? 'Iie. Now I feel useless.' Aren't I? 'No friends.' No life. 'No love.' No love... ~~~ "Usako... Usagi... I think it is best if... if... we stopped seeing each other." She nodded, understanding. She had no more emotions in her. "Hai, your right. We shouldn't. I mean, the only reason we were together was because of destiny. I don't think something that happened 1,000 years ago take control of our lives." "I... yeah..." He was speechless. "Good-bye then, Mamo-chan." She said, as she bowed to him good-bye. She turned around and walked away. "Good-bye... Usako..." He looked up at the dark gray sky. "I love you..." ~~~ When would the rain finally stop? Didn't it do enough damage enough? Apparently not. ~~~ "Nura, how are you doing?" Usagi asked her red haired friend. Nura looked at her in surprise. "Nani? Aren't you suppose to be with your friends? Makoto, Ami, Rei, and the blond... Mina?" "Iie, we aren't friends anymore." "Is that so?" "Yeah, I was wondering... do you want to do something together? It's been so long since we have done something together. Maybe to the arcade. We could talk to Motiko-san." "Iie." Nura said bitterly. "I don't like the way you are using me. Now that your other friends ditch you, you come running back to me? Well, I wasn't the one who ditched me in the first place. Usagi, can't believe you would think that you can waltz around here and think that people would want to be your friend. We once were, and now... gomen, but I'm happy that we aren't friends anymore." Usagi watched as the last person that would possibly turned on her did so. "No more friends..." ~~~ 'No love.' No friends. 'No one who cares...' Wait I have my family! 'Your family?' My family. ~~~ "Tsukino Usagi! You get up!! By this rate, you will be able to get to school by _lunch_!" Ikuno yelled. "I quit, there is just no way getting through this girl! Sometimes I wish she was more like her friends. Bright girls, I sometimes wonder why they hang around Usa..." "I'm up Okaa-san." The blond said from behind her mother. Ikuno was startled. 'She must have heard...' "Good day Okaa-san. Don't worry, they don't any more." Usagi said darkly, as she disappeared out of the door. "Ohh my..." ~~~ "You are so irresponsible Usagi! You should have watched over your cousin more carefully! Good thing your friend Rei found her. I am really disappointed in you." Kenji scolded at his daughter. She didn't flinch. "Hahaha Usagi! Getting yelled out again?!" Her imouto asked, laughing at her hysterically. She just shrugged and exited the house, no fights, no anything. ~~~ 'No one cares.' It isn't right! Why doesn't anyone care? 'Because you aren't worth it.' Mother she has to care! 'She's dead.' But... she lives in my heart. 'Then why doesn't she comfort you in your time of need?' I... I don't know. 'Face it. No one cares, no one will ever care.' No one cares... 'They mind as well forget you, it's not as if they would miss you. They wouldn't even notice.' Forget me? Forget me... ~~~ "Forget me." ~~~ There was no moon that night as the rain thrashed down violently. Thunder sounded, lighting thrash, one-person stood alone, fate's unkind hands pushing her away from happiness. ~~~