guess what? I revised this chapter cause I noted how poorly written the other one was and way confusing it was... not like this one is any better but it is in a different approach. Please send all e-mails to usako9@hotmail.com and visit my web page at: http://move.to/chibi_angel Thanks and on with the story... Disclaimer: Hey! Stop that groaning! It's not MY fault that I have to write this in every stinking chapter of my story. Let's go find the person who even thought up disclaimers and shot them... it's like please stop making my life a living hell (more so...) by forcing into writing these pointless disclaimers that announce information that everyone knows!!! Is it that fun to hear a person lose there insanity because of writing these stupid disclaimer?? ::thinks for a second and then starts to laughs softly:: actually... it is kinda funny... I mean, take me for example... ::everyone laughs:: hey!! that's rude!! You should all be ashamed at yourself! If I need to see a shrink, YOU'LL know WHY! (Usa's bored moments... -_-;;) Forgive me and Forget me By: Eternal Angel Chapter 3 (Revised) I asked God to take away my pain. God said, No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up. I asked God to make my handicapped child whole. God said, No. Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary. I asked God to grant me patience. God said, No. Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is earned. I asked God to give me happiness. God said, No. I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you. I asked God to spare me pain. God said, No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me. I asked God to make my spirit grow. God said, No. You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. God said, No. I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things. I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as he loves me. God said... Ahh, finally you have the idea. (I got this e-mailed to me and I thought what a kawaii poem it was.) ~~~ The storm slowly ceased to nothing. Has it finally ended? It might have stopped now, but it will rage on once again another time.... ~~~ Cold. So cold. The rain seems to bring tears to the moon. It is isolated, in the pit of loneliness and the pain seems to consume it. Leaving nothing but the emptiness inside one hearts. Nothing but the vast darkness that destroys everything. ~~~ I'm falling. Falling... Into the darkness that seems to snarl at me. The cold seemed to surround me as I wonder, what is warmth? Falling... Falling... When will I hit the ground? When will all this be over with? Deep and deeper I fall. I continue to fall... Fall down and down... When will all my pain and suffering end? When will death's hand finally accept me? I fall. And fall. Deeper into the darkness and loneliness that claims me for themselves. ~~~ Drowning. I'm drowning. Suffocating in the deep oceans of loneliness and... guilt? Guilt? What must I feel guilty for? Whenever I have someone in my arms the feeling rips through my heart. Guilt. As if I am wronging someone... Yet who? The questions bangs through my head. I'm drowning... Drowning.. Don't know what to do. The ocean is so deep. As I am already to far from the surface of the oceans. I'm still sinking down. Down and down. Drowning... Drowning... Drowning................ ~~~ Lightning thrashed. Rain fell. Thunder wailed. The moon had disappeared in the night's sky. 'Without no Moon, there isn't any light.' Usa: Start noting that whenever this 'voice talks about the moon it always has a capitol. As if the Moon is a real object... ya know what I mean? When it says the Moon, it really means Usagi, and when it talks about the others, they have their respected planets... yada yada... There are always the stars shinning brightly. Sometimes the planets burn deeply in the beautiful nights sky. 'But they are nothing without the Moon.' The moon isn't so special. 'That is where you are wrong. They need the moon. Without the Moon, they are nothing but simple stars in the night's sky. They blend in with the other thousands of stars.' But the moon is just a mere object that holds no life. 'That's because of you..' ~~~ I'm lost. In the pit of the deep oceans that I wield my power from. I heavy pledge of darkness filled my ocean and suffocating me into it. Darkness that makes it hard to breath. 'Loyalty... what is it?' Loyalty? Being loyal to another. 'What happens if Mercury isn't loyal to the Moon?" Nani? Mercury is a planet, the moon is just a mere object that revolves around the planets. 'That is where you are wrong... the Planets revolve around the Moon, unlike what you had said. You see, the Moon is more important then you think. Your existence is because of its existence. Without that Moon, there is no Mercury.' I don't understand... 'You were never meant to understand...' ~~~ The flames seemed to consume her. Burning in flickering in rage...? The moon. Was it really the answer? 'You have to believe in the Moon for it to be the answer.' Should I have faith in the object the revolves around the earth? 'If only it didn't revolve around the Earth so much, it would still be shinning brightly. But the Earth wasn't the only reason.' Reason? What is the reason? 'You are nothing without the Moon.' Nani? How am I nothing? I am here. 'The Moon was more to you then you thought. You should have trusted it.' How.. why should I trust the moon? It is just an object that doesn't know how to feel or care. 'That is where you are wrong. The Moon use to be an object that cares and feels, but after what you did it is no more.' I did...? 'Just note that you are -nothing- without the moon.' ~~~ Loyalty. What is it? The question rung my head as I placed my pen down. It was a stupid question from her stupid teacher as she pondered about it. Loyalty... What is it? 'Venus to the Moon.' Nani? Venus to the moon? Venus was just a planet as the moon was just a 'object'. 'You never use to think the Moon was a 'object'. You always thought it was a companion.' How can the moon be a companion? 'Because it was loyal.' Loyal? 'Because of the loyalty that you had for the Moon, she is no more. Your loyalty is lost. You made the Moon become just a mere object. The Moon use to be your friend. Where has your loyalty gone? If you did not have the Moon, you would be lost... like you are now.' Loyalty? Moon? Why do they have a connection. 'You are blind. Without the Moon, there can never be a Venus, for Venus revolved around the Moon, and formed because of the Moon.' ~~~ His eyes slowly opened as he could feel a figure snuggled against his naked body. Sheets covered them as he prayed himself away from her and put on his boxers. 'You betrayed her.' A voice told him as he wondered how he betrayed 'her'. How did I betray her. 'You were suppose to be true to her.' True to whom? 'The Moon.' The moon? It just rotates around the earth. 'I never knew why the Moon rotates around the Earth. The Moon would be happier rotating around the Sun!' Usa: ::frowns:: who is the Sun? Hmm... maybe the sun will show up later on... whatever goes... But does not the earth rotate around the sun? 'Does it? Maybe it really rotates around the Moon. The Moon always had a strong hold on the Earth. If only the Earth saw. Look how the Moon is dying. It has no more light for it is almost dead. Look what the Earth did to it! She what the Planets did to it. No more warmth comes from it. It knows no warmth. All it knows is suffering because it suffers!' But what does that have anything to do with me? 'You are so absorbed with yourself. Everything has to do with you. You are nothing without the Moon. You will never be anything without it!!' ~~~ The darkness was so magnificent as she looked up at the beautiful moon. Beautiful it was, as it glowed with immense beauty. Her home... Tears could not escape her anymore, for she had shed enough tears to fill an endless river. This loneliness is unbearable yet she forced herself to take it, for the pain reminded her that she was alive, that she wasn't dead even though she wished that she was. The string of destiny had been cut, but it didn't matter to her. Nothing did. 'Liar. It does mattered.' Iie... I don't care anymore. 'Lying yet again. You want them. You need them. Knowing that they don't care for you, that they accepted forgetting you kills your heart. Face it, you want them to remember!' No! I don't! Why should they remember me? They do not care about me! They do not want to care about me! Don't you see? They are everything without me! 'Wrong again! They are nothing without you!' Liar! ~~~ The sun slowly crept up from its sleep as the sky was now filled with light. Her eyes opened slowly, as her eyes opened hesitating. A voice filled her head as she recalled its words. 'They are nothing without you!' How untruthful that was. She slowly hoisted herself up from her bed and opened the blinds to see something she wouldn't see everyday. A beautiful castle miles ahead of her. Her head looked for any recognition of it as her eyes widen quickly. "Kami... she muttered, as she wondered how it could have happened. "The Terrain Palace..." She looked up at the visible moon as she became dead white. A faint kingdom was on it. ~~~ Yep yep! Right back to where we left off huh?