I know, this might not seem as if it's a REAL chapter, but hey, deal with it. It's actually a song that I found was PERFECT for this story. ::grins:: well, it's called 4 Seasons of Loneliness by BOYZ II MEN! Well, e-mails go to usako9@hotmail.com. Disclaimer: Sailor Moon doesn't belong to me, and neither does 4 Seasons of Loneliness (My all time favorite song!) Gomen Ne (I'm Sorry) By Eternal Angel Chapter 3 Living. Dying. Has no difference Without you in my life. Life is not worth wild, Without you in it. Without the special person, That makes life worth living for. Death would be kind, To those who do not love. One could be called dead, Without love in their life. Without you in my heart... Living. Dying. A cycle that repeats itself. Love. Hate. It seems so different, Yet is the same. Can you hate a person and then love them? As you love them and then hate them? Do you live and die? Living. Dying. Love. Hate. So similar, Yet so different. But without you in my life, I'll always be alone. Living or dying. With no one to love... And show me how to stop hate. Without you, I'm nothing. (Another one of my pointless poems.) ~~~ He held his ring in his hand as he read the engraving, which was also on -her- ring. U+M=Love S+D=Always S+E=Forever He could still remember the look in her eyes when she saw the engraving. "Is it really going to be forever?" He had told her yes right away. How he wished to see her again. To talk to her… to beg for forgiveness… but she was only in his memory. A soft melody of a song genteelly played in the background. *I long for the warmth of days gone by His heart ached for the days where she was in his arms. So happy, so content... The days when she... Was... *When you were mine His... *But now those days are memories in time But that was all in the past. His heart still banged with pain for her touch as he was going insane without her sweet kisses. He would become mesmerized whenever he was a white dress, knowing how good she looked in them, and bunnies... *Life's empty without you by my side *My heart belongs to you 'If only she knew...' He thought. IF only she knew the feeling that she had given him. If only she new that she had walked away so long ago with his heart tucked away in her bag with no acknowledge of it being in there. *No matter what I try He couldn't forget her - ohh how he tried. He couldn't forget how she been through all this because he decided to be unfaithful to him. The pain that she must have suffered must be more hurtful than the pain that he was feeling... or was it? *When I get the courage up to love somebody new "Home? To *her*? I am _way_ better than her." "You step out of that door and you will -never- see me again!" *It always falls apart 'cause they just *Can't compare to you "Good-bye then." He said, as the door closed from behind him. *Your love won't release me *I'm bound under ball and chain 'The knowledge of knowing that I hurt you scars me to this day...' He thought, wondering when he would be set free from the pain... from the knowledge... *Reminiscing our love as I watch four season's change He looked back at all the good time, remembering what he had lost. The memory of her banged into his heart, pounding into his blood as he felt the emotional pain fill his body making him slowly dying... *In comes the winter breeze *That chills the air and drifts the snow *And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe "Merry Christmas Mamo-chan!" Serena snuggled herself into his warm arms. "I'm so happy I found you." She whispered into his ear. He smiled at her. "And I too." She then pointed up to the mistletoe directly above them. "Well, I am not one that likes to break traditions," He said huskily as he claimed her lips with his. *When springtime makes its way here *Lilac blooms remind me of the scent of your perfume He embraces her from behind, as he let his headrest in her beautiful locks of gold. "Has anyone told you that your hair smells like lilacs blooming?" She turned around to face him, a soft smile played on her lips. "It depends, are you telling me?" *When summer burns with heat *I always get the hots for you *Go skinny dippin in the ocean where we use to do "Usako... I don't think the sun is the only that's hot..." He whispered, as he held her close to him. She blushed as he picked her up. "You are just to hot for your own good." He said, as he began to head towards the ocean. "Iie! Iie! Chiba Mamoru Darien! Don't you DAAARRRRRRREEEEEEEE!!!" She exclaimed as she was thrown into the cold waters. "MAMO-CHAN! I AM GOING TO KILL YOU!!!!!" *When autumn sheds the leaves the tress are bare *When you're not here it doesn't feel the same The golden leaves that were once a dark green slowly shed its self from the bare branches. They were the last of the leaves on the tree. The ground is covered with the brown, red, yellow, and orange leaves. "Usako...." How he missed her so much. Life was not the same without her... *Remember the nights when we closed out eyes *And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time Serena looked up at the beautiful blue skies. They had just had a picnic and she was placing her head in his lap. He stroked her face softly. "Tell me love, will you love me for another thousand year?" She asked, her blue eyes staring into his. "Iie... I would love you for longer than that. I would love you for all eternity and even longer if you would let me." "Ohh Mamo-chan!! *Anytime I think about these things I shared with you *I break down and cry 'cause I get so emotion The tears fall down his face as he tried to hold onto those sweet memories of her. There was so many but he could never find the warmth in them as he did in her. He had not felt that warmth ever since she left... *Until you release me I'm bound under ball and chain *Reminiscing our love as I watch four seasons change "When will you stop haunting me?" He asked out loud as a voice in his head responded. 'When you decided to let go.' *This loneliness *Has crushed my heart *Please let me love again *'Cause I need your love to comfort me and ease my pain *Or four seasons will bring the loneliness again "But what if I don't want to let go?" *Loneliness again... (Usa: the last line of the song I added...) ~~~ Done! Well, there is the whole song under this little AN! Ja ne! 4 Seasons of Loneliness Boyz II Men Evolution CD I long for the warmth of days gone by When you were mine But now those days are memories in time Life's empty without you by my side My heart belongs to you No matter what I try When I get the courage up to love somebody new It always falls apart 'cause they just Can't compare to you Your love won't release me I'm bound under ball and chain Reminiscing our love as I watch four season's change Chorus: In comes the winter breeze That chills the air and drifts the snow And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe When springtime makes its way here Lilac blooms remind me of the scent of your perfume When summer burns with heat I always get the hots for you Go skinny dippin' in the ocean where we use to do When autumn sheds the leaves the tress are bare When you're not here it doesn't feel the same Remember the nights when we closed out eyes And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time Anytime I think about these things I shared with you I break down and cry 'cause I get so emotion Until you release me I'm bound under ball and chain Reminiscing our love as I watch four seasons change Chorus This loneliness Has crushed my heart Please let me love again 'Cause I need your love to comfort me and ease my pain Or four seasons will bring the loneliness again Chorus