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To Exist…
Chapter 5b
April Rayne
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	When she reached the living room, she panicked because she had 
not seen Endymion. However, she calmed down when she saw a figure 
outside on the balcony. 
	Endymion had found his way to the balcony and was quietly 
watching the city after sunset, with it's many lights, below him.They 
stood out with the deepening night. Each light reminded him of 
Serenity, the way they stayed out to watch the stars, and how she was 
so much like a wonderful, bright light in his life. He feared for her, 
and he had to get back to her as soon as possible…but how?
	Usagi came up from behind, found a spot next to him and leaned 
her elbows on the edge. "Beautiful, isn't it?" she smiled. 
	He looked towards her. "Yes, it is…How is he?"
	Her smile faded, then came back a little. "He's okay…"
	He decided it was best not to pursue the subject, and nodded. 
He looked back towards the view and they both watched the lights in 
comfortable silence. 
	"It's funny though. He's never been this quiet since when I
first met him-and even then, he said too much."
	"Really?"
	"Mmmhmm." We're always arguing about something, like the first 
time I threw a test paper at his head."
	Endymion smiled.
	As she continued to think, Usagi's smile dimmed. "But now…he 
doesn't remember anything about us…because of…an accident."
	"You two were…"
	"Together? Well, there was always that feeling I'd get whenever
he was around, and we learned a lot about each other as time went by…" 
She paused. "Endymion…"
	"Hai?"
	"What if…Well, my friend has this problem. She knows something 
important, but she's afraid to tell someone that should know about it 
because of what she's afraid of what the other person might say."
	"Is it bad?" He began to wonder if she was going to tell him or 
not…
	"It's not *bad* news, but she doesn't want him…not to believe 
her, like he'd laugh, or something worse."
	"If it's important, she should tell him, no matter what.And if 
he truly understands her feelings, she has nothing to worry about."
	"Tell *him*? Who said it was a he?"
	"You did." the corners of his lips turned up in a wider smile.
	"I did, didn't I?" She laughed nervously, putting her hand 
behind her back. After her chuckles died out, she took a deep breath. 
"Endymion…I…I have something to tell you…You see, I know this sounds 
ridiculous, but…It's like…" Her hands gripped the edge of the railing 
tightly. "It's…I'm…" She stuttered, and her cheeks began to diffuse 
with color at her inability to speak. 
	Endymion's heart danced a little at the idea that she was 
finally talking to him about what he had been thinking about for the 
past hour. "It's all right. I know."
	"Eh?"
	"Serenity," He gently cupped her chin. "How would I not know?" 
	"Endymion…"
	He took her hands in his, and looked solemnly down at her. 
	Their eyes met, and she mustered up the courage to speak up. 
"…You're in the future. I'm the reincarnation of Princess Serenity…and 
Mamo-chan is…"
	Endymion nodded in understanding. He put aside any questions of 
how this future came to be, because he knew that he could not be 
informed of his true fate. As the final pieces of the puzzle were put 
together, he also began to realize the extent of his presence in this 
future…He knew that he and Mamoru were going through a 'tug of war'. 
And because Mamoru wasn't fully aware of his past, Endymion had the 
upper hand in this unknown fight for existence. Which, in turn, would 
change everything else-including the past.

	"I must return to the past immediately. Usagi…you have to know 
some way to get me back…You drew me here…"
	She stared at him blankly, trying to think of how he had come 
up with such a strange theory when she remembered her wish earlier. 
<Endymion, I wish I was with you…> She could use her crystal to return 
him, but… something in her…
	"I…don't understand.I just don't get it."
	"What are you talking about?"He asked quietly.
	"Don't go back!" she cried. "I…"
	"I must."
	"But-!"

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	Serenity entered the room through the large ornate doors,and 
drew a deep breath as she looked around in awe. There, in the center of 
the room, stood a massive tower, the Lunar Crystal Pillar. The open 
roof allowed the starlight to shine upon it, giving it even greater 
majesty.
	'When members of the royal bloodline pray through this pillar, 
the Moon protects us and grants us greater power, although it does 
exhaust vast amounts of your own energy. It's not something to be used 
freely.'
	She recalled her mother's words with a heavy heart. Taking slow 
steps towards it, she grasped the glass vial that held the vortex. She 
reached the pillar and knelt in front of it, placing the vortex in 
front of her. Serenity remembered her mother mentioning that to take 
someone from the vortex too a large amount of power, one that not even 
the princess could muster without proper preparation.
	She placed her hands together and bowed her head. 

	<Sacred Crystal Pillar of the Moon, I pray thee look upon a 
simple wish and grant me the power I need to save a life.>
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	"Why do you want him to remember his past, Usagi-chan?" He 
gently traced his fingers down her face.
	"Because I'm afraid." 
	His brow furrowed. "Of what?"
	"Of…If he…"
	"He needs his memories for the two of you to be together?" 
	Her eyes widened. "No!…Yes…Who knows anymore? I sure don't."
	A look of sadness fell upon Endymion's face. "You think that he 
doesn't love you?"

		
	The pillar began to radiate a white light.
	<Spare the life of one just man who fell to the hands of 
injustice.>
	

	"I don't know if he loves me at all, as Tsukino Usagi. So what 
difference would his memories bring other than giving him a glimpse of 
another person who loved someone else in the past that just happens to 
be a ditz in the future? And I want him to have his memories because's 
there's so much that we've been through…Memories are something we 
should have *together*. That's what makes memories special-the fact 
that we can *share* them…" she began to cry, and he tenderly put his 
arms around her in a warm embrace. "Endymion?"
	"Remember, you exist as Tsukino Usagi to live for *now*, the 
present, *not* the past. Memories, as important and wonderful as they 
are, shouldn't be used to hinder you from moving forward.You can 
determine what happens to your future. Besides…Mamoru is waiting for 
you."
	She stopped and looked up at him. "Eh?"
	"This is the path destiny chose for each of us, I'm meant to 
fulfill my destiny, and that includes going back to my world. I have to 
return to Serenity. Please, let me return to her."
	"Endymion…" 
	"Just like you, I have someone that waits for me. It may seem 
difficult to understand now, but you'll see in time, that everything 
works out for the best. So, please, let me return to my loved one."
	Spoken like a true, wonderful, amazing prince.
	It was going to kill her to let him go. 

	Clutching her brooch, she began to silently wish for Endymion 
to return to his time, to his princess, unsure if it was going to work. 
She had to be 100% willing to go through with it. 


	<Please, help me with your power.>


	After moments of concentration and a bit of soul searching,a 
light began to form around the brooch, and then transferred to Endymion 
himself.

	"Arigatou, Tsukino Usagi."
	"Sayonara, Endymion." 
	He brought his face down to hers, leaving a small butterfly 
kiss on her lips. He slowly moved out of the embrace, and took a step 
back. "He'd be foolish not to love you," he whispered. "Sayonara."


	<Bring him back to the light…>


	The light around him began to pulse, and brighten, and soon all
she could see was the darker outline of his body against it. 

	<I want to see him…>


	"I'll never forget you, Tsukino Usagi."
	She feigned a smile. 'Yes, you will…,' she thought to herself 
as she made a wish to have his memories sealed temporarily. She knew as 
much as he did that people shouldn't know what is in store for them in 
the far future.


	<I want to see him…>


	Usagi looked back up at him, and she found his eyes, which 
stood out in the brightness. They silently reassured her.


	The light from the pillar engulfed her.
	<Endymion…>


	"Endymion…" The light grew and expanded, bursting into a flood.
	"ENDYMION!!!"

End Chapter 5
What did you think? Confusing beyond belief? Or getting better…?

::takes a sign with a huge arrow pointing down that says, 'NEW AUTHOR' 
and holds it above her head::
I need to know what u think!
I live for feedback-and Mamo-chan^_^, but that's besides the point- I'd 
really appreciate **any** feedback, constructive criticism, whateverz, 
since this is my first fic. Pleeeze?
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This is *waaay* longer than I expected…heh…next part should be done soon…
after I fry my brain during midterms…^_^'

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